the log

Met Nadim at the Brig ; met "It"

Went with friends to the Brig in Venice Beach. Arrived to the bar shortly after midnight. Arrived to see a group of young people from Vice surrounding a man, ND. [male, 30s] who was telling a story.

I reached out my hand to introduce myself. When I grabbed Nadim’s hand I felt a pulse on my forehead. Pulse seemed to send a warning from unknown source.

Message shared: Warning that pursuing ND. was changing my life course for a difficult and dangerous path. Warned something darker than I was prepared for lay ahead. I ignored this sensation and dismissed the warning.

I approached the bar with Nadim for a drink. Nadim joked that I seemed like a spy. I thought this was ironic, because Nadim seemed like a spy based on his stories about the work he did in Egypt and China.

Around 01:15: Left the bar with Nadim. to Vice Headquarters where Nadim showed me his Academy Award and discussed the film he had been working on about the revolution. I sensed he should not be left alone that night. I left Vice Headquarters and went to ND’s residence and continued conversation on his roof.

Moved to Nadim’s bedroom. Nadim removed his shirt. I sensed an unseen presence behind ND.

"IT" seemed to be attached to Nadim. I felt IT ask for permission to attach itself to me if I decided to have sex with Nadim. I found this sensation was odd but silently agreed for IT to attach itself to me.

I had sex with Nadim and fell asleep

Suspected influence

11:00 I was invited to Nadim’s house. I walked to his place from my apartment in Venice Beach. 11:15 I was greeted at the door by Nadim; Nadim noted company of work associates and cautioned that “strange conversations” may occur.

I met Nadim’s associates OK {male, 30s] and SJ [female, 40s]. Observations: SJ pregnant, quiet, reserved. OK appeared visibly uncomfortable by my presence; body language suggested uncertainty regarding my relevance or purpose by being present.

Discussion: OK attempted to persuade Nadim to travel to Cuba for filming of President Obama's speech. Nadim displayed hesitancy. Noted repeated quick glances towards my direction from OK as Nadim. hesitated, interpreted as OK's assessment of my influence on Nadim's decision-making.

Departure: SJ and OK left shortly after arrival. Assessment: OK perceived me as potential threat to his control over Nadim.

Blue and Poe and the Crew

Attended private event hosted by artist. Noticed several A-list celebrities in attendance. Post-event I requested dropoff at Nadim’s residence.

Observed Nadim in presence of work associates; drinks being shared. Associates departed ~23:00. I entered Nadim's bedroom; noted Ndaim was acting increasingly agitated.

Nadim made reference to “the Crew” as if “the crew” were people who were present in room. I asked who/where “the crew” was and Nadim claimed they are “always with [him]." I sensed “the crew” was both a reference to actual people, possible SJ and OK and others I had not yet met. Notéd it felt as though Nadim was suggesting “the crew” was listening to our conversation.

I questioned Nadim if he had taken drugs, Nadim informed he had taken a painkiller he was prescribed following back surgery (1 day prior). Assessed Nadim's State as severely impaired due to a mixture of liquor and prescription narcotic but non-threatening; decision made to remain at his residence. I lay in Nadim’s bed and.turned my back to Nadim, intending to sleep until Nadim was coherent.

I again felt sudden intense pressure on forehead, accompanied by download information advising disengagement with Nadim warning of depressive/dark influence leading to dangerous alternate life path. Information similar in message to pulse received when meeting Nadim but perceived in this instance the message was originating in source from Nadim - I opened my eyes; observed via mirror that Nadim was standing behind me with eyes staring at my direction but glazed in stupor.

Pulsing sensation ceased. Nadim spoke aloud:

“Did you get the message?”

o Me: “What message?”

o ND.: “The message in the fourth dimension.”

o Me: “I don’t know.”

o ND.: “Yes, I know you got it. So what are you going to do?”

o Me: “I got the message but then I forgot it.”

o ND.: “That ruins the whole point.You’re supposed to remember the message to act.”

Agitated rambling ensured by Nadim. Personal response: frustration at perceived directive regarding life decisions in apparent telepathic setting, context deemed highly unusual and non-actionable. The following morning I was invited to breakfast by Nadim at approximately 10:00.

Nadim appeared anxious and apologized for his behavior the night before. Nadim inquired if he said anything “strange.” I stated he did not; I did not disclose his mentioning of “the crew.” Nadim inquired if I was sure. I responded that, he spoke to invisible people as if they were in the room, Nadim forced a laugh; laugh did not seem genuine.

Topic of conversation shifted to sleep paralysis and out of body experiences. I shared that in-high school I experienced sleep paralysis and began to feel sénsation of out of body experience occurring but hypnagogic hallucinations such as “the hag” and other presences induced fear and: woke up Nadim stated “those things are real.” Nadim abruptly changed the subject. Noted Nadim seemed ashamed and worried regarding what he spoke of in his intoxicated state.

Seemed suspicious of my claim that nothing strange occurred. Mention of “the hag” and other entities associated with hypnogenic hallucinations experienced seemed to be a sensitive subject for Nadim.

The following morning I was invited to breakfast by Nadim at approximately 10:00. Nadim appeared anxious and apologized for his*behavior the night before. Nadim inquired if he said anything “strange.” I stated he did not; I did not disclose his mentioning of “the crew.” Nadim inquired if I was sure.

I responded that, he spoke to invisible people as if they were in the room, Nadim forced a laugh; laugh did not seem genuine.

Topic of conversation shifted to sleep paralysis and out of body experiences. I shared that in-high school I experienced sleep paralysis and began to feel sénsation-of out of body experience occurring but hypnogenie hallucinations such as “the hag” and other presences induced fear and: woke up Nadim stated “those things are real.” Nadim abruptly changed the subject.

Noted Nadim seemed ashamed and worried regarding what he spoke of in his intoxicated state. Seemed suspicious of my claim that nothing strange occurred. Mention of “the hag” and other entities associated with hypnogenic hallucinations experienced seemed to be a sensitive subject for Nadim.

Sick

I woke up at Nadim’s residence feeling sick. I vomited in Nadim’s bathroom. Returned to bed.

Continued to vomit approximately every hour until approximately 15:00. I attributed this to the stomach bugb

The hag

My physical and mental health continued to deteriorate. I noted “the hag” presence, which previously had only been experienced during sleep paralysis and dreams, began to be felt during daytime hours. Attributed it to a side effect of my increasing depression symptoms and frequent meditation, leading to unusual Jungian-like experiences of subconscious state.

Example: One night I was invited by Nadim to join him and OK to the residence of Fox in Malibu. OK noted Nadim was a former CIA officer. I arrived feeling depressed and wanting to return to ND’s residence but could not as we had arrived in one car.

While speaking to Fox “the hag” suggested I tell story of Leila Khaled. Conversation appeared to make Fox uncomfortable, she excused herself. Approximately 10 minutes later, Fox's friend informed us that Fox was not feeling well, and it was time for us to leave.

I. felt satisfied seeing the suggestion of “the hag” resulted in early dismissal as I had wished. Satisfaction followed by guilt and insomnia. Remained awake until 04:00: the following morning as T felt “the hag” taunting me and,preventing me from sleeping.

“the hag” suggested I drive to Malibu to drive car off cliff. “The hag” insisted I was a disappointment to my parents. I attributed this présence of “the hag” as a symptom associated with my deteriorating physical and mental health.

Determined to address physical and mental health through improved diet and exercise and vitamin supplementation. Efforts did not improve physical or mental health. In July I entered a walk-in clinic for physical assessment by doctor.

Reported pain in lower back. Doctor noted pain in back correlated with kidneys. Reported excessive bouts of crying that had been increasing in frequency since April.

Reported symptoms began in April after a stomach bug. Did not disclose presence of “the hag” increasing in recent months. Doctor’s response: tested for signs of bacterial infection.

Did not find any sign of active infection. Doctor suggested that first stomach bug may have been a kidney infection that I recovered from without hospital visit, but left marked damage on body. Doctor expressed concern, noted additional scans were possible but would require health insurance to avoid excess expenses.

Confirmation of shared telepathic experience

20:00: Nadim informed me he was moving to New York City. Invited me to his residence while he packed his belongings. I arrived at approximately 21:00.

ND, offered me vodka. I made a comment referencing “the crew,” stating that the crew needed him in New York. Nadim’s Response: Nadim looked confused and asked how I knew about “the crew.” My response: I stated that Nadim spoke of “the crew” the night he told me to leave him in the fourth dimension.

Nadim’s face expressed awe and he replied “You smug cunt, I knew you got the message.” : Nadim kissed me and stated he loved me. Nadim left for the airport in taxi at approximately 22:00. I returned to my residence feeling excited at the apparent confirmation of direct telepathic experience.

It communicated mission in New York

Health deteriorated. “The hag” became a constant presence, offering suggestions for me to end things. Example: while waiting to cross the street, “the hag” would suggest I could jump in front of truck. As “the hag” became a stronger presence, I feared that I may act on “the hag’s suggestions in a moment of impulse. - Pulsing sensation in same source as when I met Nadim became more frequent, warning me to leave and becoming a near constant presence.

Told me I was in great danger and must return to family. 06:15, August 14th I decided to leave Los Angeles and return to be near family in New York until my health had recovered. - When I made the decision to leave Los Angelés, IT told me there was a mission that was waiting for me in New York City. I felt comforted knowing that IT was watching over me and that there was something important in my future which would validate my existence which “the hag” criticized.

More communications with It

In September I moved to live with a relative in California for a few weeks before returning to the East Coast. A friend in San Fransisco gifted me the book “the Shining.” I noticed when I read the book, pulsing sensation would ensue followed by the presence of IT. IT would provide updates on Nadim. IT informed me Nadim was seeing someone that “the crew” approved of. IT continued to trigger desired contact from Nadim.

If I requested communication from Nadim I would activate communication with IT to send my request. Within 20 minutes, I would receive a text from Nadim to ask how i was doing.

I began to feel a deep sense of familiarity with IT and appreciated this connection, though I was not sure how to explain it. I reasoned IT was explainable by Jungian theories and did not disclose my experiences with IT to others. Began reading “the Shining” if I wanted to communicaté with ND. or inquire about his dynamics with “the crew.” IT continued to reassure Me that there was a mission waiting for me in New York City.

Brooklyn, New York

Preceding context: I moved to New York City after staying with my relative in California for several weeks. Noted my health seemed to improve markedly. Presence of “the hag” subsided significantly and was no longer taunting me.

I attributed this to improvement in my mental and physical health. Connected with ND. via text when I arrived in New York City. Nadim offered I stay with him until I find an apartment.

IT accepted offer. I dismissed earlier warnings from IT that Nadim was seeing someone new. After approximately two weeks of living with Nadim., Nadim stated he was helping his brother move apartments.

I decided to meditate when he left to help brother. IT told me that ND. was with his brother and a woman. IT encouragéd,me to look at ND.'s computer, On Nadim’s computer I saw messages on Facebook that Nadim was dating someone who lived with “his brother.

I confronted ND. about this when, he returned. Nadim admitted he had started seeing someone else. Nadim initiated plans to move out, offered that I take his apartment lease.

New York City

Nadim significantly reduced contact. I experienced extreme distress. - If again informed me “the crew” approved of this new woman but not of me. I questioned why “the crew” had such power over ND.

I questioned if Nadim. regularly experienced telepathic experiences with people. Confused by the apparent connection I had with ND. and felt his leaving was indicative that I was of no use to “the crew.” IT assured me Nadim’s leaving was part of the plan. IT told me something was going to happen soon that: would prove my value to people who worked above “the crew.” I concluded based on Nadim’s apparent work in China and Egypt and his ongoing Cuban project in New York that "the crew” was code for an expansive intelligence network.Concluded that “the crew” did not deem my connections or status to bé of value. Concluded the only way to move past feeling of rejection from “Nadim.” and my depression in the aftermath Gf. the breakup would be to attract the attention of an intelligence,ageney by gathering intelligence while also finding a story that would be worth sharing in a screenplay so I could establish my value as a writer and as a person ‘of influence.

New York, New York

I determined I needed a distraction to move past Nadim. I found an advertisement online seeking “Hiring Models/Dancer/Students Who LOVE or HATE Nightlife 18.” I decided to pursue this opportunity to find an interesting story for my screenplay which could rival the story of a revolution. 19:12: I emailed the advertisement contact with photos of myself and details about my age and work as an artist.

19:49: I received an email response with details on meeting for informational session for potential models. "Thank you for your interest in coming to learn all about us at one of our informational GROUP INTERVIEWS. We hold the information sessions most every Wednesday and Thursday at 6:30pm in a group at a Lounge. You can come either day.You will be interviewing us more than it will be us interviewing you.

We have many different positions available for the right candidates like yourself.

We are not the venues, they only provide the space to hold the informational meetings before they open.

GROUP INTERVIEW AND TALKING WITH THE GIRLS: We will start with an overview of the positive and progressive ideals and intentions of our events. Including a light orientation that will also inform you about the work and many of the details. You will have all of your questions answered by management and by several of the girls already with us.

Saint Venus Theatre

I arrived at a Night Club in Manhattan to meet a group of young women who were interested in this opportunity. The man hosting the informational session introduced himself as “Roger.” He wore a suit and had a grey ponytail, I noted the appearance of “Roger” was similar to the figure from the dream I had in August. Attributed this similarity in appearance to coincidence.

Potential models were informed that events catered to high end clients such as wall street associates, lawyers, and other “wealthy, influential people.” Were informed all clients were age 35+, models had to be 18+. No stripping was required. Nudity was not allowed.

No private rooms were présent. All models had to do was be pleasant and interested in the men we spoke to and we would make money. Informed us locations varied throughout various venues in Manhattan and open to clientele who were registered on the list approved by “Roger.” “Roger” informed us that many models make over $1000 per night. I decided to pursue the opportunity, IT told me this opportunity was part of my mission.

I considered that the venue may be a placé were members of “the crew” would be and I could use it to capture their attention to prove my value by gathering my own intelligence about various clientele.

Manhattan New York. Various Locations

I began working weekly at SVT hosted by “Roger". Job entailed drinking and flirting with clients. Events included about 60-80 young models.

“Roger” preferred all models be students or artists who had never worked in night club setting to make flirtatious engagement with clientele feel natural and authentic. Noted strict rules regarding behavior with clientele: Models’ phones must be turned into coat check upon entry. Models instructed anyone suspected of sharing phone numbers or personal contact information with clientele would be terminated immediately.

Models were informed that women were on the floor who were employed exclusively to listen for any signs that rules were being broken. Example given: Models who say the words “my number” or “your number” or any combination of digits which would correlate with a phone number*would be immediately terminated. — I developed strategy to gather intelligence with hopes of attracting attention of “the crew.” Strategy included beginning conversation with clientele by claiming I enjoyed attending these parties as an opportuntity to talk to interesting men to get over my recent break-up. I would then inform clientele that my ex was a spy.

This would trigger response in target man in which they would attempt to impress me with their own stories.

Example: one man [60s] said he previously worked with a wall street organization that was involved in black market arms trafficking.

Another shared he was one of the largest donors to President Trump's campaign. Another man as implied he worked with the Russian Mafia. After three weeks of engaging in my strategy to capture attention of “the crew”, I began to notice strange behavior of people in my vicinity.

Example: When discussing spies at SVT with former associate of arms trafficking company, I noted sudden change in body language from a model in immediate vicinity as though she was listening to what he was disclosing. Interpretation: My theory that “the crew” may be present at these venues was likely correct, my mentioning of ex was gaining their attention.

Began to question if surveillance outside of the venues had been engaged but dismissed these suspicions that I was being targeted by an intelligence agency as highly unlikely and attributed my suspicions regarding apparent surveillance to my deep desire to be recruited to give my life a purpose and have an interesting story to share. After several weeks of working at SVT I learned of other parties run by different men and women that catered to similar clientele with other interests than standard flirtation. [i.e., Fetish-focused events].

I was referred to’“Quentin,” who each ran fetish-focused events in Manhattan in which models were paid for their services.

the Foot Boutique

Preceding event: Initiated contact with “Quentin.” His female associate agreed to meet me in Manhattan. After brief discussion, she agreed to take me to see “Quentin” at his studio for an interview. “Quentin” [male, 30s] seemed suspicious if I would fit as a model at his events.

He requested to see ___ Noted ___. Requested ___- to test. He asked if I was comfortable with ____. I found questions highly unusual.

“Quentin” asked if I brought 2 ____. I provided him with _____. “Quentin” was notably impressed by _____

“Quentin” instructed me to.never _____ and that they would be of extréme value at his events. ‘Quentin” instructed me what activities I should never agree to at his parties as these activities were illegal and could be the request of an undercoyer cops. Activities included: urinating on clientele for money; defecation on clientele for money, touching of genitalia of clientele for money, exchange of body massage without a license for money. ‘“Quentin” extended invitation to his next event called “Fetish Fantasy Party”.

Informed me phones were not allowed on the floor. informed me not to exchange contact info with clientele for personal use. ‘“Quentin” asked what name I intended to use at his events. I said I would go by Lily

“Quentin” did not acknowledge the name of Lily. Quentin informed me I would go by Hazel, as I resembled a former model who went by the name of Hazel that used to work at his events.

Hotel Pennsylvania

Attended my first event hosted by “Quentin.” I noted the marked difference in behavior between models and clientele compared to Roger’s events. Job did not entail dancing with customers. Services from models included dominating clientele in fetish focused situations.

Noted clientele did not arrive in groups, which contrasted with events hosted by “Roger” who frequently hosted clientele bringing work associates as a bonding experience. Attendance by clientele was highly secretive. All clientele arrived alone and did not wish their presence to be noted by potential associates.

Assessment: Privacy of clientele more highly prioritized than clientele present at events hosted by “Roger. ”:Clientele associated their involvement with these events with potential shame or embarrassment. . After completing my first session with a Client, a man of Chinese descent [60s-70s] approached mé. He: asked if I knew a man named “Roger.” I replied that I did.

He warned me that “Roger” had spies everywhere, “and “Roger did not like it when his models worked at other events.:.F told the man I preferred these events, and if Roger found out I would be OK leaving. Man smiled told me he respected that “I was not intimidated by “Roger” and informed me to be, careful. Assessed warning as friendly in nature and thanked him for the information. i

Fired from SVT

“Roger” texted me to ask if I was working at other parties. I confirmed. I informed “Roger” I would continue working at parties hosted by “Quentin” for the immediate future.

Did not hear from “Roger” again. Continued to work regularly with “Quentin” at his monthly events and private practice.

IMSI catcher

Preceding context: Met a client who requested to see me before “Quentin”’s monthly party at Hotel Pennsylvania at approximately 21:00. Theme: Stockings and Lingerie. Party began at approximately 22:00.

Noticed a young man [early to mid 20s] who seemed out of place. He was working on a computer in the corner, which struck me as odd because phones and electronic devices were not allowed on the floor for security/privacy of clientele. I approached the young man and asked him his name.

“T.” stated he was from London and had hosted similar parties in the U.K. T. stated he was at the event to help “Quentin.”” I asked T. if he was interested in a session: T. glanced at my toes and declined. T. stated he only did sessions with women who had painted toes.

I suspected T. was looking for a reason to decline sessions and he was there for an ulterior motive related to his computer. I continued small talk with T to gather further intelligence. Another model approached and asked Ts.for a session, Model had black polish on her toes. T declined again and said he only did sessions with women who had red toes.

Model left. I asked T what he did in London when he wasn’t hosting parties, T. replied that he was a data analyst. I replied “My ex was a spy too.” I stated this because “data analyst” is what Nadim claimed he did in China though I suspected Nadim worked for the State Department.

T. visibly gulped and appeared nervous.

After a brief pause, T.replied “I like what I do because I know I am helping people..”I shrugged and replied “My ex killed a guy.” This statement was not true but I stated it to test how T. would react. Reaction: T. looked progressively more nervous. The previous model returned with freshly painted red toes.

T. giggled and declined a session again. I decided to leave T. alone and raised my glass to cheers T.’s drink and continued to browse the room for potential clientele. An older man approached me.

He introduced himself as “George” and asked for a session. George struck me as odd, because I it seemed as though he was faking his mannerisms or disguising his age. Sensed he was hiding why he was attending the party.

Noted that p appeared as though he was trying to change his natural appearance. [Noted: possible cheek implants, dyed hair, false veneers]. George also appeared to be feigning nerves, though I was not sure why. Simultaneously, I felt a pulse on my forehead with a message the same source to when I first met Nadim. The message said I "should trust him (George),but to be careful."

Message informed me that George would stir up a lot of “demons” but George would be a catalyst that could help me, particularly with writing.

Also noted: presence of “the hag” sensed above my right shoulder, which suggested vulgar ideas George had in his mind regarding my body. I dismissed “the hag.” I decided to accept George’s offer for a session. We took a seat to the right of the bar. George began to massage my feet

George asked what I did outside the parties. I replied I was a screenwriter and asked what he did. George said he was a consultant in DC where he did a lot of history work regarding spy craft. I replied that I was just talking about spies.

George inquired who I was talking with and seemed unusually interested. It occured to me that T. may be unaware of each other or work for opposing sides. I did not want to expose T.’s cover, as I found T.'s genuine nerves more endearing than George. It occurred to me that George may be related ot the crew and was at the party to approach me because I had been speaking of spies in relation to ND and his associates, “the crew.” Sensed George was tied to work conducted by SJ and OK but not directly associated with them.

I suspected associates of SJ and OK sent George to determine how much I knew about their work and that of “the crew.” T decided it was imperative not to mention Nadim if I was to maintain contact with George and achieve my goal of understanding how ‘the crew’ and their related associates operated.

Response chosen: I informed George that I was sharing a story about my great uncle, who was a Spy- George seemed interested by this and I disclosed that my great uncle worked for Radio Free Europe. I also informed George I was a screenwriter working on an espionage screenplay. George offered me his number so we could continue discussing my screenplay, as George has insights through his consulting work as to how intelligence operations work and suggested he could help make the script more realistic.

I saved George‘s number in the notes of my phone, but I did not text George that night because it was against the rules to text clients or attendees or the party. Experience from *Roger”’s events left fear about being caught sharing numbers. Be also had a personal rule to never text a client at a party if I had been drinking as I preferred to have a clear judgement when providing my contact information at these events. I returned home to my apartment at approximately 1 AM.

I texted Nadim “I talked to 2 spies tonight.” He replied “real spies don’t tell people they’ re spies.” I responded .” The phone indicated that Nadim began typing, put Nadim never sent his message. As I fell asleep, IT told me that I would not hear from Nadim for a long time.

IT informed me IT could no longer provide updates on Nadim or “the crew”'s motivations or activities. IT would now only give insight into the associates related to the top, people above the crew.

First meeting with George The Tamale House.

Met with George at the Tamale House in the Lower East Side. First meeting we planned outside of the parties. A young man was seated when I arrived.

He sat by the window and appeared to be reading a book but never turned the pages. I suspected he was in training and sent to listen to our conversation. George arrived 40 minutes late.

Conversation began. by George discussing his ‘dysfunctional relationships’ with various women. I suspected this was a cue to lead me to disclose my own ‘dysfunctional relationship’ with Nadim. I did not engage and diverted conversation to my screenplay which we had previously discussed at the party. .

Told George the screenplay was about a dominatrix, “Elle,” [female, early 20s] based in New York City who began to work at these secret parties to rediscover her confidence after a breakup, but that I was hoping for it to havea deeper meaning or twist to make it darker, perhaps an espionage angle. George suggested a protagnoist work for Trump administration. I found presidential angle to bé odd suggestion and wondered why George would suggest this.

I told George I would like to develop the espionage angle but was unsure why a dominatrix would work for the Trump administration and found this implausible. George advised on how to make the script more realistic, as he had historic knowledge of how intelligence agencies worked. George informed that if the main character, “Elle” were to be recruited by a U.S. intelligence agency, her recruiters would inform her that it would be treason for “Elle” to tell anyone about her recruiters, as this would be putting U.S. officials/national secrets at risk.

I suspected this was George’s coded way of telling me that I would be committing treason if I told anyone about who I suspected he really was. George also informed me that the entire recruitment process would be done in a way to make “Elle” appear crazy if she told anyone what was happening, and that intelligence agencies defense tactic was “Deny Everything.” George offered me a Vintage Steel Twist Style pen and demonstrated how to use it for self-defense purposes.

KGB Bar

Preceding Context: Meeting arranged at KGB Bar, suggested by George Purpose: introduction to Michelle, a prominent figure in modern occultism. George reported collaboration with Michelle on Cuba-based project integrating art, occult practice, and subversive political messaging with local artists. George recommended I obtain tarot reading from Michelle, citing her reputed capacity to exceed standard cold-reading techniques, which he himself acknowledged having been trained in.

I approached Michelle; Michelle displayed marked hostility toward me. Michelle verbalized disparagement: described me as “young and dumb,” expressed surprise at George's concurrent collaborations with other young women. I noticed Michelle's voice had the same intonation as “the hag” figure.

I concluded insults were not a ‘personal attack by Michelle but sourced from “the hag.” : Interpretation: Assessed that Michelle perceived me as a threat to what she believed was an exclusive role in underground network associated with George Attacks attributed to influence of “the Hag,” whose apparent objective,was to obstruct my interaction with George

Spy Museum

Preceding context: Arranged plans to drive with George to Washington, D.C. Purpose: meeting with Mr. X at Ques : consulting on espionage screenplay.

Pre-meeting discussion: George apologized for prior interactions with Michelle, noting behavior atypical and likely influenced by jealousy upon learning of my collaboration with George George elaborated on complicated interpersonal/romantic relationship with Michelle I assured George attacks were not taken personally. Attributed Michelle's behavior to phenomenon referred to as “the Hag,” gesturing to right of my shoulder.

Reaction: George expressed concern; requested elaboration. I explained “the Hag” as a perceptible figure occasionally appearing on others’ faces or in nearby vicinity. I explained I named it the hag based on figure that appeared in my childhood nightmares and sleep paralysis. George reiterated concern and stated Michelle also experienced figure to right of her shoulder that she called artemis. He believed these things were real and they were not helping but they wanted to hurt humans. I dismissed his concerns.

That night I meditated again. IT confirmed that I would need to begin a relationship with George to complete “the ritual.” I was not sure what “the ritual” was but felt it was sexual in nature.

I was upset by this confirmation but declared aloud “I know what I need to do to complete the ritual, I will do it.” IT informed that stating this aloud was important in communicating with people who worked above George and his direct associates. IT informed that that there was a parallel mission, to my recruitment which was being watched by people to whom George and his direct associates reported but were not acquainted with.

The missing liquor bottle and ISMI catcher confirmation

I arrived to my day job at American Cut, a steakhouse in midtown. Earlier in the week, I noticed my managers, J. and Paige seemed unusually cold towards me. I overheard employees speaking that a bottle of whiskey was stolen from the bar.

The bottle was said to be partially filled and estimated to cost several hundred USD. The day after I heard of the missing bottle, J. began interviews with people for my position. By the third day, J- and paige no longer seemed cold.

I overheard employees stating that the bottle had been “returned” and was found in the wine cellar, with no liquor missing.

At the end of the week, I met with George in Carol Gardens to discuss progress on my screenplay. George provided operational insight regarding recruitment tacties which I could incorporate into the screenplay. George informed me that, in practice, handlers conduct controlled stress tests to evaluate the target’s composure under pressure while simultaneously establishing dominance/surveillance.

Example: the recruit would be placed in jeopardy at workplace— engineered circumstances leading to subject’s imminent termination. At a critical moment, external intervention would prevent her from being fire.

I suggested an idea for the screenplay in which Ellie would approach a man at the party that she suspected of being a spy. This would happy the night she met her handler. And when she confronts the spy, who is sitting in the middle of the room looking very suspicious by running code on a PC, he nearly caves and tells her everything before her hanlder can approach her. I refer to the British man, and asked what that guy was doing at the party the night we met. George laughed and said "he wasn't a spy, he was just hiring by Quentin to intercept text messages in the vicinity. So Quentin could catch girls that were sharing numbers with private clients.

Shared too much

Preceding context: After decision to pursue relationship with George, doubts intensified regarding his authenticity as an intelligence officer. Consideration: my personal history, which included a deep fixation on recruitment scenario following termination of relationship with ND., whom I suspected of peripheral ties to intelligence community that encouraged our relationship to end due to my lack of utility to their mission and possible compromising of their control over Nadim.

Alternate hypothesis: George was misrepresenting his affiliation as an intelligence officer to enhance appeal to younger women; his sincerity questioned. I initiated phone contact with M.M. (college associate) over a call for consultation. - Disclosure: I provided account of interactions with George, including his veiled self-presentation as US. government intelligence officer.

I also méntioned his explanation of the man at the party, T. who George claimed was helping “Quentin” by setting up a hack to surveil text messages within the vicinity of his electronic device. - M.M.’s assessment:, suspicions validated. Drawing from M.M.’s professional background as a social worker with prior FBI collaboration on child sexctrafficking investigations, she asserted that, FBI, lacked legal authority to deploy live vicinity-baséd=text-message interception devices domestically even in extreme Scenarios.

Conclusion: activities described by George

and “computer operator” at party by “Quentin” were highly irregular and indicative of unlawful conduct for a U.S. government officer.

The Cigarette Smoking Man

I relocated apartments from East Williamsburg to live with a former college associate in Bushwick. Upon moving in, I noticed, a man [20s-30s] who was smoking a cigarette outside.

Over the course of two weeks, I noted this man was always present outside the apartment building when I returned home alone. Noted he was frequently. smoking cigarettes outside upon my return from the Fetish parties between midnight and 2AM. Noted man also appeared to smoke a cigarette whenever I was alone on the public rooftop of our shared building.

Concluded man was possibly part of a surveillance team that was sent for me to be aware that my movements were being tracked, but would only appear when i was,alone in order to have plausible deniability if I made verbalized suspicions to my associates. To test theory, I left the apartment without my phone to see if he would arrive. Noted walking around neighborhood without phone/tracking information would trigger the cigarette smoking man to appear in the area on his bike. I decided to incorporate the man into my screenplay as the “Cigarette smoking man,” a part of the surveillance team for Elle whose purpose was to provide physical surveillance and track movements noticed only by her.

After two weeks of analyzing his surveillance habits, I decided to engage man in conversation to strike rapport. I left my apartment without my phone to stand on rooftop alone. After a few moments, the man arrived to smoke a cigarette as I expected.

I approached the man»and asked his name. He informed me his name was G.R. G.R.

stated hé lived in the building with his girlfriend for a long-time. G.R. informed me he was a photographer. Noted G-R. had a strange smile and way of speaking which I interpreted as a friendly acknowledgement that he knew I knew he was sent to watch me and make it clear that I was under constant surveillance while maintaining plausible deniability.

Began to feel a sense of familiarity toward G.R. as I knew he would always be present when I returned home from events.

The Warning

Preceding context: I did not hear from George for three days. George attributed lack of communication to “phone issues.” On fourth day, George suggested additional meeting. Location chosen: A crowded juice bar.

George appeared nervous upon my arrival. Conversation conducted in corner seating. Screenplay discussion: George proposed scenario in which recruiter divulges excessive operational detail, later jeopardized when “Elle” reveals information to a friend, compromising integrity of the operation.

George suggested that the team analyzing “Elle” and her recruitment process may be suspicious as she may be passing all tests “suspiciously well.” Added layer: recruiting team suspect “Elle” of being FBI asset posing as a dominatrix to stage entrapment on intelligence networks operating on domestic soil. Alternate suspicion: Elle’s rapid miastery, of training materials suggest she is pre-trained by an intelligence service.

Additional element: George stated in most scenario if a potential recruit were to disclose such information regarding her relationship with a handler, the recruitment process would stop immediately. George implied Elle’s storyline was “highly unusual” and that even Elle’s handler and his direct associates may not understand orders to continue recruitment process, adding intrigue to the story. : Assessment: veiled réference to my disclosure to M.M. raised concerns regarding my reliability; confirmation that my personal phone communications weré under surveillance.

Confirmation that ee. orders to continue recruitment process were coming above my handler’s team from péople that were interested in continuing my recruitment for other. purposes than typical asset-training. I suspected this was tied to my experiences with Nadim, which I had not yet disclosed to George George also confirmed that it is illegal for the CIA to operate on U.S. soil. Confirmed recruiters would be in trouble if caught doing anything illegal, such as tapping phones of citizens within the vicinity of an electronic device.

Instead suggested that Elle’s recruiters might use one of their intelligence allies, such as the German BND, to run an operation on their behalf. George reiterated that for Elle to know foreign operations on domestic soil was occurring and not disclose it would be considered treason. George reiterated that outing a CIA officer would be considered treason, ion reiterated complex relationship that non-official cover agents often hold between various agencies.

George shared story of Donald Downes, who formed the first muiti-international intelligence agency. Assessment: how to move forward was not clear; heavily implied that to say anything further could be considered treason regardless of who her recruiters were. Established that phone communications were under surveillance and my activities were being heavily scrutinized.

George outlined further training techniques!..manipulation of vocal delivery in public spaces. Noted that: whispers.

operate at higher frequencies, making them easier to capture. Demonstrated that monotone voice in crowded room creates maximum difficulty for eavesdroppers. Additional screenplay suggestion: George shared how Elle’s handler may state “locks are a myth” and demonstrate to Elle how any lock can be picked, theréby teaching her a new skill.

Suggested that handler’s may alsé' demonstrate that they could enter her home without leaving a.trace ‘jike ghosts” as part of a training initiative that would also establish dominance between the potential asset atid, handler. Example given: Common tactic used by KGB against foreign diplomats was tying a stocking in knot and leaving on the bed. or leaving unflushed feces in the toilet. This would demonstrate their presence and surveillance without leaving any signs of forced entry or credible evidence for potential police investigation if suspicions regarding illegal activity were reported.

Departure assessment: confirmed no punitive consequence for my M.M. communication. Blame attributed to handiler’s over— disclosure regarding T. and his surveillance activity. Noted implication that George's superiors harbored suspicion regarding my intentions and reliability, while acknowledging my strong capability in obtaining sensitive information from individuais that have been highly trained to secure such information, such as George Conclusion: necessity for heightened caution to secure my continued recruitment.

After the meeting, I called M.M.

to tell her to disregard my earlier suspicions regarding George I claimed I was paranoid and attributed it to smoking marijuana. M.M. responded with sympathetic concern, I felt satisfied that my recruiters would know I had fixed the situation by voluntarily implicating myself as an unstable to my former associates.

the Prime Minister

Preceding context: I was feeling excitement regarding rapid progress on screenplay, given George’s connections to Sqm in Washington, D.C. I began to notice a strange shift in “the hag” which typically was associated with insults towards others. “the hag” shifted to advisory voice which seemed to be helping me during this recruitment process. “The Hag” instructed me to call ECK [male, 50s], a producer/writer I knew from my time in Los Angeles who was known for work on HBO’s _____. Per the suggestion of “the hag” I called ECK.

We discussed details of screenplay. “The hag” suggested I emphasize the script/storyline leading in a direction with ties to international community, particularly in the Middle East. ECK stated he maintained numerous filmmakers’.contacts in Beiruit.

Offered to facilitate introductions. - “The Hag” next directed,me to call my relative and communicate intent to travel to Lebanon to meet filmmakers facilitated by ECK-“BAC recalled’a recent return from mma with spouse, who held strong connections in region. BAC recalled their récent trip included a dinner with Lebanon‘s Prime.Minister. BAC shared details regarding her conversation. Prime Minister and his plans for the country.

Key intelligence relayed: Prime Minister’s stated plan to unify country through initiative bridging Shia and Sunni communities. Observation: “The Hag” expressed visible delight at this disclosure.

Moments later, I received call from George, who expressed enthusiasm and announced a forthcoming “surprise.” Interpreted this as a possible reward impending for demonstrated performance. Assessment: considered acquisition of high-level information a success; presumed recruiters monitoring my call viewed outcome favorably and affirmed my capabilities in gathering intelligence.

Helicopter Paintball

Attended military event with George and associate F.R. Recognition: F.R. also employed at private events hosted by “Quentin.”. Noted correlation: “Quentin”’s gatherings functioning as potential aS recruitment platforms; assessed this as likely vector through which I was identified as potential asset and/or target. Preceding context: George disclosed “complicated” relationship with F.R. as it originated as dominatrix client/provider, evolving into close friendship with flirtatious undertone. * Main activity: aerial target game conducted from helicopter.

Interpreted as bonding mechanism; highly unique experience designed to intensify group Cohesion and reinforce recruitment process/in-group/community mentality. Also possible evaluation of one’s target/military skills and/or fear of heights. i Closing observation: On return home, George positioned phone in manner allowing visibility of text exchange between George and his associate. Message from third party: “youre with both of them?” Assessment: disclosure and téxts. calculated to provoke jealousy.

Personal reaction: absence:of romantic attraction toward George However, identified recruiter tactic-engineer loyalty by cultivating romantic attachment. Conclusion: necessity to attempt to pursue romantic connection in near future with George as demonstration of loyalty and submission to broader recruitment objective.

Ritual Part 1

Preceding Context: I relocated apartments from Williamsburg to Bushwick, where I made plans to live with a former college associate, Cali(female, 20s]. In the preceding days, George repeatedly hinted at coming to my apartment to work with his friend “STAR,” an aspiring filmmaker who previously worked at Saint Venus Theater who I suspected was also in training. “STAR” called and suggested she we all meet to write. together in my apartment. I doubted her sincerity; she did not seem to like me, and I suspected George had suggested STAR inquire about working together in my home as a test to see if she could succeed in being invited inside to home of a potential target.

I declined. Mentally noted that potential recruits/assets were used in training activities against each other, possibly to induce a sense of community and simultaneous competition for approval from handler. a ; On May 4, I invited George to my apartment. under the pretext of working on my screenplay. I reasoned after 'George's remarks regarding locks being easy to bypass that my recruiters entry into my apartment was inevitable and felt this invitation was a demonstration of trust and necessary to move on to the next step of the recruitment process and ritual.

Event Timeline: 13:00: George offered to bring wine and Chinese food to my apartment to write together, in the evening. I suspected this was an attempt to lower my guard through alcohol. I did not mind, as I felt confident I could avoid speaking about ND. even if I was drinking.

Planned to, meet at approximately 18:00. 18:30, I texted George to ask about his arrival time. George called to tell me he was running late but was arriving soon.

I suspected this delay was deliberate. Suspected that George intended to increase my hunger so the wine would have a stronger affect. George arrived just after 20:00.

George blamed rush-hour traffic. I did not believe him but did not raise questions. 20:15: George unwrapped the Chinese food and appeared to feign surprise that the order was wrong: The dumplings and lo mien I requested were not present.

The bag contained an order of brown sali s ee sour souGeorge I suspected this “mistake” was delT €, designed to ensure I drank wine with minimal content to absorb alcohol. George claimed he must have mistakenly grabbed an order that belonged to another customer. George opened the wine and we discussed my screenplay.

He offered additional insights into how the espionage team might recruit “Elle” in real life, noting her recruiters would aim to be invited into her home to plant a bug and maintain constant surveillance even in absence of phone. 22:00: I finished the second bottle of wine, I was drunk. I said aloud what I believed was expected for me to proceed to the next stage of recruitment: that I would have to start a relationship with George I told George I believed he had both a real side and an acting side, and that I would only pursue it if it was genuine.

I kissed George

- Simultaneously, I felt a spark in my head which indicated the next stage that IT had planned was now in place. IT suggested this step was crucial for the next phase of “the ritual” to be complete. I noted that..George was not aware of ‘Ene ritual” but sensed that a,team above his immediate superiors were aware of this.and were watching with interest to see how I would develop in folfilling their mission.

5 ~ At the moment I kissed George, my roommate Cali entered the apartment. Embarrassment.,hit me immediately. I realized the age gap between George and mé would be difficult to explain as T could not provide context that this relationship was necessary to further.engage my recruiters without compromising my. continued ‘recruitment.

22:15. George excused himself, saying he had to meet with friends, but added that the.néxt time he saw me he might “seem different.” 22:35: My roommate Calireturned to her room. I was noticably drunk and tried to explain out loud that George and I were only working on the screenplay.

I spoke aloud while entering her room and took a seat on her bed .I began writing on a scrap of paper while speaking about an unrelated topic so that if my recruiters were listening they would not be suspicious of a pause in conversation while I wrote the handwritten note which read “This apartment is bugged”. I passed it to Cali. Cali said “Ok,” laughed, looked disturbed and changed the subject.

Tt felt satisfied I had warned Cali. Shortly after, I went to bed and slept.

Additional note: That night I had a dream in which IT was seeping through my memories and dreams. I felt by making the next step of “the ritual” by kissing George I had given IT permission to enter and access these memories and to sift through my thoughts. I woke up feeling satisfied I was moving onto the next step of the mission IT had told me about.

The note

Preceding context: George and I arranged plans to look for sites that could be used for an venue to host several guests in an intimate dinner-party setting. Due to the specific nature of his request to find a place with “a chandelier” or “large fireplace” ina “secluded spot” that was “private” and “difficult to find” in a location “on water.” I sensed that this was another test.

George picked me up from my apartment at approximately 10:00. I suggested a venue I knew of in Millbrook, NY but George wanted to visit a few spots that were closer to the city.

We first drove to Tarrytown, NY. We.walked through a cemetery upon George’s suggestion. I noticed a man military build that was running in circles around us through the tracks of the cemetery.

I suspected he may be monitoring us. George kissed me on the trail. I again, felt this was part of a game or act that was necessary for the recruitment process though I did not feel physical attraction toward George. George decided the cemetery would not be a suitable location.

We returned to his car to continue driving north.

Following my directions we drove to a private gun club in Millbrook, NY that was frequented by high profile individuals, including the Rockefellers and Johnson and Johnson heiresses. I directed him down a dirt road to a cabin in the woods that I had visited several years prior with a member of the club who was now deceased. Upon exiting the vehicle I gave George a tour of the off-grid cabin which had a candle-lit chandelier and large fireplace and was in a secluded spot overlooking a waterfall on a small creek.

George seemed surprised that I had found a place with his exact specifications within 24 hours. I sensed I had passed this test exceedingly well, and this was a surprise to George . George paused and told me that he would have to speak with someone he had been seeing, a woman he referred to as “Meg.” George said he needed to speak with “Meg” before moving forward in a relationship with me. I sensed this was coded language, and George was suggesting that I had passed the tests and he needed to confirm with his team that I was approved in order to engage in our relationship. I suggested we spend the night in this cabin as George had previously implied the venue would be used for an overnight event, knowing George would decline.

George suggested we get dinner in the village of Millbrook. The restaurant was empty, except for an older couple seated at the bar. After dinner, as we left the couple at the bar spoke to us stating “Have fun you two, good you are not camping outside, it is going to be cold tonight.

I sensed this was coded language to demonstrate we may always be under surveillance, as they reference camping comment I made towards George at the cabin. George drove me back to Bushwick. Upon arrival I received a text from Cali. Text referenced note I had passed to her in the apartment stating the place was bugged. I felt sense of dread as I knew my texts were being monitored and this text could disrupt the recruitment process as it demonstrated and I had spoke

I responded to Cali that I had smoked marijuana that night and was experiencing paranoia. I noticed George's phone was receiving multiple texts and knew this would be about wht I had shared wtih Cali

George looked concerned as he read his texts. George said it was “Meg” and that she was texting him to let him know she had passed a “complicated sexual disease” to him.

George informed me he needed to talk to his “Doctor” and he was not sure when he’d be able to see me again or continue the relationship. I sensed George was suggesting he may need to cut contact and end recruitment process. Feeling of dread grew. I exited vehicle to return to my place and speak to Cali in attempt to smooth over text. IT admonished me for what I had done and told me I had severely compromised my ability to continue mission and complete “the ritual.” IT told me ritual was “not yet over” and that IT could save my role in the mission but only if I did exactly as IT instructed me to.

The mop and duster

Preceding context: Cali decided to spend the night at a friend’s house. Appeared to outwardly accept my explanation that the message on my note was due to marijuana intoxication. Cited her reason for staying at friend's house was that “cockroaches” in the apartment made her uncomfortable.

Cali also stated my relationship with George made her uncomfortable. I assured her George would no longer be invited into the apartment. 9:00: I awoke to an empty apartment.

10:30: I was in bed and experienced a perception of slowed time and reduced heart rate. I suspected external manipulation, possibly via remote technology, and feared that death may be imminent. E 10:35: Cali entered the apartment.

Sensation ceased immediately. Cali said she was doing laundry and then planned to go to IKEA. I asked to join her fearing being left alone in the event that the previous sensation was a form of impending punishment from my recruiters.

Travel: IKEA, Red Hook. Cali drove. We shopped for furniture.

We stopped at Whole Foods on return. I felt watched and continued to anticipate an impending punishment. I did not disclose these ‘concerns, but I played “You Don’t Own Me” on the car’s stereo, hoping it would act as a coded message to my recruiters to let them know I was not scared of them.

Upon returning to the apartment, Cali and I noticed a mop and duster that were not previously present in the kitchen.

Both items were tagged with “IKEA” labels. I suggested management may have been in the apartment to finalize renovations as we had recently moved in; Cali did not look convinced. She displayed signs of discomfort.

I joked that it must be “ghosts,” as George had used this term to refer to the recruiting team in the espionage script. Cali did not laugh.

The Attack

Preceding context: Cali decided to spend night with friends. Again cited presence of cockroaches as making her uncomfortable. I had avoided being home alone in the apartment for most of the day as I felt there was an impending punishment.

Presence of “the hag” as active throughout the day. 20:30: I returned to my apartment alone. A sense of punishment was imminent.

IT told me “they” [people involved in “the ritual”] wanted “to steal my sight.” “The hag” taunted me about “a surprise” that was to come. 21:00: I received a call from George; George said he could not speak long. I told him I wanted everything to stop George continued talking.

George apologized for what was about to happen. George recalled a story his father used to tell him about the “Christmas Rabbit” that could reverse time by spinning. George said if he could turn back time, he would but now I had to make a choice.

George informed me I now had to make a choice of the blue pill or the red pill and this would allow me tosee “how far the rabbit hole goes.” I stated I did not want to proceed with the ritual or tests anymore and to please stop. George ended the call abruptly and told me he had to go. I repeated that I wanted this to stop. Within minutes, I lost all cell phone service and wifi

I suspected signal jamming. The feeling I experienced the day before when alone in my apartment returned. Time seemed to slow.

I noted my room appeared to flatten and become two dimensional. I lay down on my bed in fear. The presence of “the hag” vanished as I felt IT enter the room, who was the top of the hierarchy of the Jungian-presences.

I no longer felt IT as an invisible omniscient presence but rather could identify its location in the room, I noted IT appeared like a shimmering heatwave: something I could see through yet see at the same time. As I observed this odd phenomenon, IT lunged at me. Rapid flashes of memory followed: I saw memories of innocence and childhood that were long forgotten.

IT told me to let go of these memories to be reunited with the “true Source” and “True Mother.” IT presented itself both as a godlike figure and as a hidden knowledge source. IT said this was an essential part of “the ritual” and required absolute submission in order to ensure my continued involvement in the mission. The demand: to become its vessel and let go of self.

I felt overwhelmed and wanted the sensation to stop. Extreme confusion induced a sense of fatigue. Darkness and sleep pressed in as I closed my eyes to let IT take over as I let go of the control of my thoughts and memories and stopped trying to make sense of what IT claimed to be true. As I drifted to sleep and submission I felt a strong pulsing at my forehead.

Pulsing came from source which was present when I met nadim and warned me I was taking a dangerous path. Pulsing urged me to wake up, carrying a sense of strength and urgency. I opened my eyes and I saw IT differently: IT was not a protective source that connected me, “the crew” or other people; IT was evil. Sensed IT had complex ties to scientologists, freemasons, ‘the crew’ but also to my own experiences: IT was every sense of evil hatred or insecurity or bittnerness ever felt.

I accepted responsibility and felt ashamed. The pulsing gave a clear message: FORGIVE. I realized forgiveness was the way to resist. I spoke aloud, the words originating from the pulsing sensation which urged me to wake up. Words felt both directed at IT and those who were providing audio surveillance of my room: both my recruiters and their superiors who gave directives for recruitment/ritual process to continue despite my pleases to stop

I declared It has already Lost , love was eternal. It remained under god. It had no real control. IT weakened, then disappeared. I sensed the group above my immediate recruiters decided to abandon their effort to use me for “the mission.” Determined that I would not serve as their vessel for future “ritual” involving sexual relations with George. The pulsing faded, leaving me with the message: do not analyze event. Know you know the truth. Do not try to make logical sense of cause and effect or place blame.

Trust yourself. I wept.

Minutes later, my phone signal returned. George called again. I answered but struggled to respond.

He said he had been at the military airfield upstate in Stewart earlier that day, where laser technology and drones was demonstrated. Heavy emphasis placed on the word lasers. Stated they do "unbelievable things the public doesn't know about." George seemed to suggest my experience was induced by laser technology as a “final test” or possible interrogation purpose. I did not like this explanation as I felt George was ignorant of the depth of spiritual manipulation. Suspected there were people he was not aware of who had expected for something much darker to happen.

George said he had little time to talk and hung up, quickly before I could respond. At 22:47 I received an email from my dad: “US military's secret space vehicle lands with sonic bang: http: //news360. com/art ic) </i> And if that’s news, what is held secret? Robotic space ships orbiting for two years — maybe housing homes for Elvis and princess Di ... while us earthlings are living under Trump and North Korean nutjob....

I fear life here on earth may be a reality series for an outer space ruling class afterall. That's my two drink conspiracy theory...” I suspected this was a message sent by my recruiters to instill fear and paranoia while demonstrating they could access the devices of my family while mimicking their communication styles. Recognized if I confront my dad about this email and he did not remember sending it the failure to remember sending the message could be attributed to his drinks.

Recognized if I pushed further about the true sender of this message or any of my theories regarding what happened to me I would appear unstable. I sensed I should not talk about this experience, as it was a possible psychological manipulation/interrogation tactic used by my recruiters to discredit my earlier claims to friends regarding the apartment being bugged. Reasoned this manipulation technique could have been ordered by my recruiter's superiors who were interested in “the ritual” that IT told me about as the experimental interrogation tactic would provide a way to justify my recruitment process by inducing am extreme state to elicit confession or result in temporary psychosis to discredit previous claims I made to associates. Simuttansously, the experience may provide a way for my recruiter’s superiors to see if IT was an appropriate “vessel” for “the Ritual” without revealing intentions of the group that delivered orders to my handler and his associates. Assessment/Suspected influence (above my recruiter/handler, George: Esoteric freemason/scientology connections, other more secretive cult involved with sex rituals for intelligence and control

Sensed that the secret organization behind the attack backed off out of respect for rejecting/surviving force of attack, Uncertain if this interpretation is due to manipulation of brainwaves due to spirituality-induced state/possible laser-induced remote stimulation of the temporal lobes to induce temporary psychosis but decision made to follow warning from source that saved me from the attack to not attempt to make sense of what happened to me and instead trust the lesson I learned from experience.

Post-note: Continued to have panic attacks and signs of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder on the anniversary of this date for the next 7 years.

The Doctor

George informed me he had good news: his “doctor” said it was safe for him to work in person with me. Warned me his “doctor” stated he could not engage in sexual relationship for undisclosed period of time, I felt relief that this was a sign I would not pe isolated from George and related efforts regarding the script, but understood the mission that IT had in mind for me was discontinued. No longer felt desire to communicate with IT; “the hag” presence no longer available.

Assessment: Possibility to continue recruitment with George and his direct associates to complete screenplay. “Mission” outlined by IT related to their superiors had been abandoned by my rejection of consumption by IT which wanted me to agree to be a vessel which would cumulate in “the ritual” that involved sexual relations with George

The threat test

15:15: While alone in my apartment, I experienced a surge of anger regarding prior manipulation designed to induce a spiritual experience that had been intended to discredit me and make me question my reality. Felt anger that I had begged for George’s presence in my life. Felt anger toward George for agreeing to partake in psychological manipulation.

15:17: I directed my anger toward recruiters by speaking aloud in my apartment, presuming they were listening via bugs. I stated aloud that if they believed my telling friends about what I experienced would make me look crazy, I was willing to test it. I stated I would tell everyone I knew what the intelligence agency had done to manipulate/induce a spiritual event as part of their illegal interrogation strategies on domestic soil.

I would share all details which led me to. believe: it was an induced attack that somehow stimulated the temporal lobe and possible amygdala region while cutting off my ‘ability to communicate via signal jamming. 15:19: I received a call from George Call interaction: I answered feigning delighted surprise as I knew George could not address my threats directly without implicating that he had audio surveillance of my apartment.

George inquired whether I was upset..I stated I was not upset and asked why he thought I might be.*George suggested playing a “20 Questions” game. « First question George

posed: “Why don’t you trust me?” After the call, I left my apartment and observed my neighbor, G.R., passing me in the hallway staircase. G.R. engaged in eye contact and gave me an exasperated look as he passed me, which I interpreted as a response to my prior threats. Confirmed my suspicions that G.R. was a part of the audio monitoring team in addition to provide physical surveillance.

Reasoned G.R, may be responsible for signaling to George when my emotional state was at risk of compromising the agency’s work. Tactical decision: I determined it was advantageous to gain further rapport with G.R., leveraging my ability to communicate directly with him via my monitored apartment environment, as I suspected he controlled what information was shared with my handler regarding my conversations and actions. *I presumed some coded text was used to alert my handler when he had to call me, though my additional experiments led me to believe that George was not told “exactly” what I said, as this could compromise his plausible deniability.

Rather, it seemed George was provided indirect coded information as to my emotional state so that he could bring me back to a state that he could trust was under his control. If I was in a good mood and feeling ‘annoyed’ with the surveillance team that acted as liaison between my behavior and George, I would play Alanis Morisette “Thank you” on repeat and sing along loudly while wearing sound cancelling headphones.

This was part of my strategy win over the people who oversaw audio surveillance to my apartment by playing games with them and addressing them in a playful manner, as I thought I may succeed in gaining their loyalty towards me rather than my handler. Noted G.R. was significantly younger than George and less ingrained in the agency,:.as his mannerisms were more natural and authentic than George Previous interactions with G.R. on the roof suggested he perceived my commentary and interactions with him as a playful game, which I reasoned could work to my advantage.

The White Van

‘y George requested meeting at a Chess Club located between 5th avenue and 9th Street. Upon arrival, could not locate a chess club. George did not answer phone for further directions.

As I looked for venue, an elderly woman [70s-80s] approached me on sidewalk requesting directions to the nearest subway. Woman approached me in a manner that led me to step toward the street, with the woman placing herself between me and the buildings. I looked at my phone to provide directions.

Concurrently, a white van arrived with speed and engaged brakes rapidly to stop directly next to where I stood. Van door then opened and closed rapidly, offering little time for me to react. Vehicle then departed at speed.

Elderly woman turned and walked away before I could provide directions or comment on incident with van. Subsequent communication: George called immediately, clarified correct location, apologized for confusion, noting he was one street over. : Interpretation: Lack of communication on meeting place was deliberate to provide staged test demonstrating vulnerability to decoy distractions in kidnapping scenarios. Determined test not fully passed; scenario provided operational lesson on situational awareness.

Chess Club meeting: discussed screenplay.

George disclosed iliness preventing physical intimacy for a long time but that we could continue in our “relationship” that I requested; coded interpretation: “doctor” reference signaled supervisor providing guidance on timing and parameters of operational relationship. Signaled need to maintain outward appearance of an intimate relationship. George elaborated on how intelligence agencies test assets. Offered example used by military agencies during World War II: Subject is placed in dark setting with ground seemingly far below though at undetermined height due to dark lighting.

Subject instructed to take bar to dMariae above ground. Subject then instructed to let go. Three options followed: Subject #1 lets go and falls, recruiters observe subject follows orders, placed on path 1.

Subject #2 refuses to let go; recruiters observe subject prioritizes safety and observes situational risk before following orders, placed on path #2. Subject #3 looks around and sees a barely visible ledge, places feet on ledge on lets go, following orders while ensuring safety. Subject placed on officer path.

George elaborated Masons offer similar tests in understanding recruits willingness to lie to those above them in heirarchy or maintain secrecy to protect others

Tests used to learn about how the subject processes their environment and navigates power and safety dynamics subjects behavior in these tests determines their type of role within organization: Departing observation: same elderly woman appeared again as we left the chess club, requested directions to subway once more. I took a sidestep toward the building and provided instructions. Elderly woman walked away in same direction as before- Interpreted as confirmation that staged test concluded.

The greatest cover

11:15: I was walking in Lower East Side. Noted lingering residual anger toward George regarding spiritual manipulation, determined to use emotion to inspire script. Inspiration for opening line of the screenplay arrived: (Open on Black Screen] A Female Voice Whispers: *you want to know the greatest cover...the truth.” 11:20 I received a call from my sister, announcing ______ I was happy for her.

I made joke about _____11:30: I received call from George- I answered excitedly, making a point to show my excitement in my voice. I announced I had opening line for the screenplay. George's response: "ok.” Followed by brief pause and “Are you mad at me?” - My response: denial and feigned confusion at question. I suspected, George was referring to the joke I had made with my sister as I had previously said aloud in my room about my suspicions of being pregnant, intending for this message to be analyzed by my recruiters, as I suspected this belief was lingering side effect of the laser interrogation used to induce temporary psychosis.

Comment and subsequent intent to confuse analysis by my recruiters regarding my state stemmed from personal anger regarding psychological and spiritual manipulation in weeks prior that I interpreted was intended to discredit my stability. Conversation discontinued.

George stated he had to go. I informed him I would be working on the script and was excited to share developments with him when it was finished later that day. Felt satisfied by the artistic merit.

The Wedding

Attended family gathering; George joined as my plus one. Guest [BTM] raised concerns regarding George’s claims about his life. Did not believe George attended Harvard College.

Did not believe George worked in Easter Germany or Russia. Did not believe George spoke Spanish. BTM took license plate number of George’s car and confirmed George was 54 years old.

Confronted me with these accusations in front of family. Suggested George may be a sex trafficker. My response: denial.

I knew that George was not a sex trafficker; I had ample evidence based on previous surveillance [G.R. and others; elderly woman, etc] and psychological manipulation tests [spiritual attack] to know George was ass. ated ‘with: high level and coordinated intelligence organization but could not disclose this.

I denied anything was odd about my relationship, attacked obvious flaws in BIM’s claims regarding his suspicions about George. Felt desire to tell them this relationship was necessary for the development of the script which would have a significant impact on the country but I feared punishment on family and self would be inflicted by George’s team if I divulged information. Post event: George informed me that BTM’s behavior was erratic, informed me how George “or anyone” could report BTM’s tax filing.

Interpreted this as a threat to keep BTM under control to prevent punishment. Reaction: frustration with family for complicating matters; frustration with George for lying about age. Noted confronting George about age led to self-blame for failure to question George’s age and for complying with what I knew to be a lie.

Felt desire to distance myself from family for their failure to understand or see what I was going through [including my marked success in recruitment processes

the Prime Minister pt 2

CNN reported that the Prime Minister of Lebanon was resigning. Reports speculated that he was being held hostage by Saudi Arabia. Prime Minister gave statement that he was resigning because he saw no hope for his country.

Sources speculate that this statement was forced. I felt guilt watching this as I recalled the reaction that “the hag” had when I first secured intel that the Prime Minister was working on plans to unite the Sunnis and the Shias in the country to promote stability in the region. I suspected this intel may have been used against him by those listening to my phone conversation to prevent stability in the region.

I expressed my concerns about this to George who had previously validated my experiences with “the hag.”George dismissed my concerns. George stated the ee was bound to fall apart. 1 did not feel comforted by this analysis and doubts regarding my relationship with George and the yalue,of his work began to rise.

PD eye

The Christmas Rabbit

Preceding context: Returning with George in his car on a trip from D.C. in which we consulted with Mr. X regarding the script, We discussed psychological manipulation tactics used by recruiters on both recruits and their targets. Mr.

X. discussed military technology such as lasers or sound waves that can be used to induce heightened states of anxiety and disperse crowds. We discussed current “Sonic Wave attacks” that were happening to diplomats in by unknown intelligence agency that was resulting in permeant brain damage and hearing loss. Conversation triggered memories of spiritual attack induced by my recruiters.

My mood notably deteriorated on return trip home; George inquired what was bothering me. I stated how Mr. X did not discuss how recruiters may use laser technology to induce a spiritual event and temporary psychosis.

George denied any technology like this existed; I did not believe him and interpreted his reaction as feigned confusion. I suspected George knew such technology had been used on me for interrogation/experimental purpéses. George denied any knowledge of this event and asked why I would direct such anger towards him or why I would believe hé was involved in ordering this hypothetical attack.

I responded by referencing the phone call he made before the attack and asked why hé had stated that I had to “make a choice” and referenced his mention of the “Christmas Rabbit” on this phone call. George looked visibly concerned.

I noted his reaction to the mention of the “Christmas rabbit” seemed like genuine confusion/disturbance, contrasting with his earlier dismissal and feigned confusion of my anger regarding accusations of spiritually-induced remote technological attack. George asked me to clarify what I remember him saying the night of this supposed attack. I recalled how George told me the “Christmas Rabbit” turns back time by spinning in a circle and that George shared this story before the attack began, telling me it was too late and I was at a point that I had to make a choice.

George informed me that the “Christmas Rabbit” was a story he was told as a kid by his father, but he never told anyone else about this. I noted George looked genuinely disturbed by my knowledge of this story which contrasted with his previous reaction of feigned denial of having any knowledge about the spiritual manipulation attack. George continued that he agreed whatever happened to me that night was spiritual in nature, potentially hiding behind another event that was happening simultaneously to cause confusion.

I interpreted this as George acknowledging that there was some physical manipulation using remote technology to induce a spiritual experience, but he could not explain the apparent phone call which revealed information to me that only he knew about. Conversation discontinued.

Progress

L received a call from OWL an associate from Los angeles: I informed OWL of the development on my script which was nearing its final draft: OWL offered to facilitate an introduction to her partner, a producer who was looking for new scripts. I was excited by this news. I informed George of the development.

George's response: "I told you. Things always work out in perfect timing when you're like me and people behind the scenes." I did not Like this implication that progress of the screenplay relied on George. George then asked why my name was listed first on the screenplay.

He insisted writers should be in alphebetical order according to their last name. I agreed to change the order of the writers’ names.

Cigarette Smoking Man noticed by roommate

I was sitting on stoop of my apartment in Bushwick with my rooommate Alex. G.R. approached us and made direct eye contact with me and smiled and asked if I would watch his bike. I agreed. Roommate noted odd interaction and asked why he spoke to me "like you have an inside joke." I feigned ignorance. Alex stated : "That is your secret CIA buddy. You are both spies." I laughed at response.

New York, New York

George began work with a non-profit. Befriended several young women who he described as ‘useful.’ Encouraged me to meet them. I stated I did not like his description of people in terms of their utility. y expressed concerns regarding intentions and behaviors of the women.

George reiterated to overlook this as they were ‘useful.’ I again reiterated I did not like interacting with people based on their perceived utility- George shared that one of the women, LU, was experiencing similar dynami.cs with ‘the hag’ that went by a different name. Encouraged T meet her. George disclosed LU had previous family members who were involved with Masonic orders.

LU reached out and requested 1 meet he and informed George a pianned to meet LU. ta church. I agreed George's response: anger, refusing this méeting Be allowed. Accused me of trying to take over controlof his partnerships with various women and their utility for various projects.

1 felt frustration by this attack put déclined to meet with LU due to George’s reaction. ;

Stall

Preceding context: screenplay had made numerous developments, including being sent to the production companies through the help of my associates in Los Angeles. Received feedback from notable production companies, including that of Charlize Theron and Sam Ismail. Feedback noted the story was strong, but producers were unsure of target Audience demographic.

Producers stated no screenplay like this had been produced before, and expressed concern regarding whether it would appeal or a conservative or liberal audience. I resp ledsthat the purpose was to show how facts can be rearranged to cater to opposing conspiracies and political ideologies and the intent was to reveal how these tactics are used by intelligence agencies, foreign and domestic, to create among target audiences.

Producers suggested the removal of President Trump's name. I expected that George would have associates in his, network to move the script forward, as he had implied the script wsa destined to be produced if I continued to work under his direction. I realized George did not have associates available to ensure the script would be produced.

I felt a growing resentment regarding shared credit with George on the development of the screenplay., Attempted to dismiss feelings of resentment and continue to focus on production of script.

The Psychiatric Institution

prepared to terminate sperationship with George. Motivating factors: ° Growing resentment regarding shared credit on screenplay. perception of imbalance in contributions and credit. ° Residual resentment from prior psycholoigcal and spiritual manipulation, inability to acknowledge doctor's orders regarding sexual activity would not change so long as we were together ° Frustration of power imbalance ° Frustration George regarding control of personal projects: ° Frustration regarding George's constant description of people in terms of utility. The the week I planned to end things, George informed me that he was diagnosed with congestive heart failure and had approximately one year to live

I then received a test from my roommate Alex that she had read my screenplay which I had left in my bedroom. She had questions regarding the authenticity of the script: Requested reassurance script was not real. I was frustrated by this reaction and felt overwhelmed with George’s current situation.

I assured her script was fictional. Alex persisted that she noticed a character that was modeled after her. I repeated that script was fictional and any similarities were purely coincidental.

Alex became qncreasingly paranoid over next two days. Alex became convinced the CIA was following her and arranged for her to run into her ex on the street. I assured Alex the CIA did not arrange for Alex to run into her ex.

Alex did not believe me- I did not have reason to believe explaining what aspects of the screenplay were based on reality would result in any benefits. Believed both myself and Alex would be punished if I shared any additional details regarding inspiration for the script. Situation escalated.

Alex became convinced demons were after her. Alex’s mother checked her into psychiatric unit for two weeks. I was frustrated by Alex's reaction. Did not understand why Alex would not see the logical thing to do would be to drop the subject and stop asking questions if she believed the apartment was bugged or that demons were after her.

The miracle

George informed me he had made a miraculous recovery, and he had more than one year to live. I noted personal feelings of relief and exhaustion. Made decision to begin distancing myself from George while maintaining working relationship [covID-19 — Remote Collaboration Period] continued remote collaboration with George on new projects; physical separation allowed me to notice increasing disengagement, concern about George‘s conduct, and conscious recognition of “cult- Like” dynamic.

Began to mentally disengage from the recruitment process and future collaborations with George Noted disillusionment with George's ability and efforts to advance or sell the screenplay; noted George claimed equal credit despite perception of unequal efforts to write the script or sell the project. Began to consciously recognize elements “cult-Like” dynamic in the working relationship, including o Restrictions on direct contact with associates without George present ; o Hostile responses and personal attacks when questioning the unusual nature of the relationship and rules (including rules: concerning sexual relations established by a designated “doctor”), despite being required to maintain an, outward appearance of intimacy. o implied threats dirécted at my friends and family if I “stepped out of line” or disclosed information. o Frequent use of coded in-group Language and encouragement of “magical thinking” within the organization. ° Normalizing constant surveillance for greater mission.

Noted feeling of disillusionment that I had willing entered cult dynamic and unwittingly provided personal details of loved ones which could be used as collateral to maintain obedience.

Felt it was imperative to remove myself from this situation to prevent a further sense of self-identity with this group but was not sure how to leave without giving up on screenplay.

Reunion with Nadim

I received a text from Nadim, this was the first text since our last contact in February 2017. Agreed to meet Nadim in New York City. Nadim informed me he was distancing himself from SJ and OK.

Discussed his latest project involved infiltrating a high-profile sex cult. He noted he felt his own creative collaboration with them was “cult like.” I mentally noted similar feelings toward my dynamic with George but did not vocalize this.

The Breakup

I officially “broke up” with George Informed George I was reconnecting with Nadim. We agreed to continue working together to ensure the production of the screenplay.

Diagnosis Report

Commercial Psychiatry Total Paid: $0.00 Visit Topics No topics added Visit Notes. Psychiatry Initial Visit Note Emergency contact name and number: None on file History of Presenting Problem: the patient is a 26-year-old female with the complaint of anxiety. The patient reparts warsening anxiety over past few years. The patient spent most of the session in May 2017.

The patient reports on this day “a moment” happened that “everything went flat like two dimensional. It was like a moment of pure evil entered the room and I saw my life flash before my eyes. I thought I was dying. it was a bittersweet moment. This is something that I think about a lot when I have anxiety. I talked to a priest about this and I was told that evil is real and that I rejected it and not to overthink it."

"The priest told me that I'm free and fine.” Patient reports meditating frequently in months leading up to this event. The patient reports that the anniversary of the event in May causes rumination. Patient reports infrequent visits with primary care doctor.

The patient reports difficulties with her insurance limiting visits to PCP The patient denies any suicidal ideations. Speech: normal rate volume and tone Mood: “anxious” Affect: full range and appropriate Thought form: the patient displayed mild degree of thought disorder. The patient paused and used additional effort to think before speaking.

Complete thought stopping not observed, but delay in her thinking process was apparent. Thought Content: the patient denied any paranoia. However, the patient spent the majority of the session speaking about “an event” that occurred in 2017.

Perceptions: the patient denied any current auditory hallucinations. The patient meets criteria for unspecified psychosis not due to a substance or known physiological condition. It is unclear exactly what happened in May 07 2021 . Patient spent majority of the session elaborating on event in May 2017 in which she ‘experienced evil“ and its revelation.“ The patient reports feeling traumatized about the experience from May 2017. Feedback and recommendations were provided with the intention of balancing honesty regarding clinical observations with an empathetic and supportive approach, in order to facilitate appropriate diagnostic evaluation and treatment.

Following the session, the patient was sent several resources through secure messaging. These included instruction in the 4-7-8 breathing technique for use during periods of escalating stress: exhale completely, inhale through the nose for four seconds, hold the breath for seven seconds, and then exhale slowly through the mouth over eight seconds while positioning the tongue against the roof of the mouth. ith deliberate redirection away from thoughts concerning the past or future.

Gaps in Care =. Recommend follow-up with PCP for high blood pressure screening.

This patient meets the criteria for regular blood pressure screenings.

diagnosis: unspecified psychosis not due to substance or known condition.

Egyptian Arrest

Arrived to Cairo with Nadim. Nadim arrested in airport for an item in a suitcase he brought for OK.

Espionage charges

Informed that Nadim is facing 30 years in Egyptian prison for espionage.

Charges dropped

Informed that charges were dropped. OK booked hotel in Cyprus for myself and Nadim, state it was an apology.

Reduced audio interactions

George asked if I was OK. I responded Yes. George requested a phone call. I informed him I preferred to keep all information over text.

George asked if I was angry with him. I responded I was not, reiterated I preferred to communicate via text. George acquiesced.

George shared more information about his life. I did not coment or engage further, suspected he was calling in attempt to gather information about my personal life.

George encouraged me to call sometime and that he would share things that were happening behind the scenes during our time in Russia and Ukraine, things I was not aware of. I did not comment on this suggestion, I felt he was using this as bakt to get me to engage in personal communications again and éstablish a renewed desire for involvement in secret activities.

Text surveillance pattern noted

As I was preparing for a trip to where I was scheduled to meet a member of the Royal Family from ___, I received a text from George. I noted that George seemed to text me after interactions with Maria: I presumed George’s team may only be alerted to follow my text communications between foreign individuals of potential influence and alert George to attempt to obtain information through casual conversation. I shared excitement for my trip and minimal information

Noted panic attack set in after I shared excitement and other information regarding my trip.

Yes or No

I was at the departing terminal in Detroit when I received text from George. He provided information about his personal life and recent projects in Cuba. I told him I was in Detroit for work. Panic immediately set in. Recognized this was a pattern: I disclose personal information to him, panic and depressive symptoms would follow. I noted this pattern ever since George made threats toward Maria in 2020. I made decision to only answer in yes or no for future communications in the event that he met someone who could help develop the screenplay

Andros, Greece

Decided to share everything and block George

Missing NASA scientist interview re: condensed energy weapons

I saw an interview by a former FBI agent that admitted he had no evidence for his theory, but he believed a condensed energy weapon was used on one of the Missing NASA scientists to induce psychosis. Reminded me of the attack on May 7th. I contacted him to tell him my story.

FBI/UFO-ologist

He wrote back :)

Epstein files

I discovered that Saint Venus Theatre was in the Epstein Files! One of the Rothschilds sent Epstein an invite. Suspected a connection since recounting the game I used to play there when the guy told me the last company he worked with on Wall street was involved in arms trafficking.

Confirmation feels good.

AI v human understanding of story

what’s cool is that AI can’t seem to pick up on what I’m doing here. I explicitly state this is nonfiction, and AI says it’s “an immersive unfiction.”

I'm also pretty sure only humans can understand why the Christmas Rabbit detail is so weird, the way it circled back a few months later.

I know (in the book) i end with this implication i finally walked away from solving the mystery. But after being under surveillance for so long i can't help myself from feeling a win when i notice these little moments of tricking the system.